Thursday, July 4, 2013

Reinventing Myself Every Day

 
   Perhaps you are a lot like me. I have to reinvent myself every singly day. This is because I feel different pretty much every day. Nerve pain changes, or my stimulator implant doesn't work as well on a particular day, the knee that hasn't been replaced yet goes on the blink, or some other issue creeps up, and today is different than it was yesterday. I can understand why people don't know what to expect out of me because I don't know what to expect out of myself either.
     The Apostle Paul, in the Bible makes a statement that I must live by, when he declares that he sets aside what lies behind and presses forward toward the prize. The days of preaching are gone, and the days of singing have passed. The days of representing a Christian college vanished a long time ago and more recently so did the days of public school teaching. Who I was yesterday is not who I am today. Who I am today is not anywhere close to the person I will be tomorrow.
     If I spend all of my days trying to relive what I used to be, I will miss the things I still can be. One thing that is certain, I am considered permanently disabled. That being said, I can now begin to reinvent a whole new me that works within those disabilities. In the past few years I have become a writer, author, blogger, independent publisher, cook, and the best house husband I can be. I stay home most of the time, moving from my desk to my recliner. My circumstances have little to do with what I have to say, or how I can still have influence. As long as I have ideas, I will continue to write.
     I am sure there will be no end to the things people say about me, and while those opinions may affect me for a time, it is what God says about me that is really important. Because of this, I will continue to reinvent myself so that I might have the opportunity to impact a few. If that happens, then what more could anyone ask?